I never thought I would be in this position especially when I never led towards ever becoming this person. I have lost several things along the way that meant a lot to me which is why I can’t continue to live like this, because I will never be fully satisfied with anything. I have realized that I need to focus on myself and do whatever makes ME happy for once. For months now, almost a year I’ve been struggling with so many problems that I didn’t want to admit to. I am going to change back to the way I am meant to be…happy. I don’t even recognize myself anymore and it is truly scary. Everyday is a struggle but I will get there, I WILL. Life is too precious to be mopping around thinking about all the negative things that are to come. I will wake up one day and smile again just because it’s another day to live up to.